you said what?

tomorrow will be fun. hell yeah

my birthday is tomorrow !!!

bored

im watching titanic. ha. nice right

happy st. pattys day..

ahhaslkdjfaslkdfj;sakdf im such a werido..

i folded my laundry.. but along with mine..i folded his.. and when i put mine away.. i added his to his drawer and his closet space.. what has this come to. hes not even my boyfriend, yet i do his laundry along with mine, he has 2 drawers (which are filled) and closet space (4 sweatshirts, a vest, and 2 jackets?)
i swear i didnt relize this til tonight. ahhh hahahahahha hello house wife?


i had fun with my cousins today.. love em!

tomorrow:
bye bye david
work at 12 :o(
dinner/sushi with steph
laundry
(pink berry)
sleep.

alrighty welllll its about that time again. peaceeeeeeee

i dont feel like getting out of bed. but this is what i have planed for today:

go to the bank, get money
go to FS and visit steph
eat lunch?
go to AA in downtown
(if i dont get anything) go to mitsua
come home.. nap.. i duno what else.

im watching i love new york and its so funny. its like one of the first episodes and its so crazy. the guys are so nuts.. and some are emotional. templeton is laying on the end of my bed. im going to go pet him!!!!

ew im so sick of you. i cant even listen to my voicemail.

why am i watching dance life?
[this guy blake in INSANE. he thinks hes the shit. dancers wear weird clothes]

i want to move outttt. right away.

andddd i dont really want to worrk tomorrow. and i kinda want a BOYFRIEND not a half relationship. but not from you, from him.

pshhhhhhhhksj;dfalsdkjfa;skldfjaskldf i jsut felt like typing on this comp... i like it. i guess ill go to bed now. peace out

i feel like ive come over a hill
i know im supposta be crying over my dying grandpa but i know hes going to a better place and he is suffering here waiting to die. its hard of my family and i know they will cry every night til hes gone.

with my brother, emotions run deep and with me i have a heart of stone. im the strongest one in my family, maybe because i have to be? i have to be the strong one when my brother is crying and when my mother is depressed. i have to be the strong support to them and i feel obligated to do so. i love them with all my heart and it hearts to see them sad. they know how i am and iknow they understand why i dont show emotions around the.m. nothing is wrong with me. im exceptional.

i love you because i can. i know others disagree with the idea of it but i cant help it. i know you are very wrong for me. but
i love you for you
i love you for making me mad
i love you for making me stronger
i love you for making me better
i love you for making me relize what i have and what i am.
i love you. and you will love me.
i know you do and i know you wont say it. i had a dream last ngiht you told me and i already knew it. how could you not. no one shares a bond like us. we will love each other, you really dont need to be scared.

im watching the oscars alone. im drinking a bottle of wine and eating pirates booty. waiting.. anticipating what comes after this. i know you care. and i knwo you will show it.







beyond that. im realizing who my TRUE friends are. i have some i know are honest and content with me and will be around for a while im so glad ive made some that i have so much in common with and i know they will stick around. some just showed other sides and acted like high schoolers. not cool ok.

this weekend with my father really relized how much i love jose and how much i need him. i cant imagine my life with out him.

aksdjfasljd;fasdfkasdfkj as you can see, im in a mood. good night lovahs.

ahhhhhhh ive been having FUUUNN these past couple of days
+sleepovers EVERYNIGHT with pootie
+new.. uh humms..
+friends friends friends <3

hopefully tonight my sexy twin will come over and we will chill for a little bit b4 i pass out. hahahha.

i gotta get my moms car towed!!! i busted the oil pan or whatever the fuck it is. its leaking oil everywhere... so..

-no work.
-no car.
-nothing to do today.

its soo hot today i wish i had my new bikini to go lay out in and get a niceeeee tannn i need to get a tan. i cant even wear shorts today because im white and i didnt shave.

peace outtt

hi hi hi

ok so lets see.. whats been going on? nothing. ha. well ok .. works fuuun with my twinny :o) andd last night was fun with taliaaaaaa and all others. ummm ok .. well big changes in my future i believe. and you shoudl be excited. hahaha. today steph and i are going to go to malibu and venice and samo and be all over this fucking town today and do lots of SHOPPPPPINNNGG like we always do <3 andd ima get something pierced ;o).im starving right now... but i dont feel like getting up. its kinda cold in my house and tempy is right here. omggg his bday is coming up .. along with valentines day. and kevs birthday. ok this is very random and stupid. i just wanted to type because i like how it feeeeels on my MAC!!!!

bye bitchesssss

today i relized
when i called you with something really exciting for me, and wanted to share it with you, and you said you would call me back in a couple hours when you were done, and you never did..
that you didnt care and i needed to get over you.

HELLLLLLLLOO COACHELLA!

Rage Against The Machine
Bjork
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Tiesto
Arcade Fire
Interpol
Manu Chao
Willie Nelson
Air
Happy Mondays
Decemberists
Faithless
Gotan Project
The Good, The Bad and The Queen
Paul Van Dyk
Arctic Monkeys
The Roots
Jarvis Cocker
Sonic Youth
Crowded House
Placebo
Satellite Party
Stephen Marley feat Jr. Gong
Kings of Leon
DJ Shadow
Kaiser Chiefs
Koono No. 1
LCD Soundsystem
Nickel Creek
Travis
Damien Rice
Black Keys
Blonde Redhead
Infected Mushroom
New Pornographers
Peeping Tom
Placebo
Rufus Wainwright
The Rapture
Explosions in the Sky
Richie Hawtin
!!!
Benny Benassy
Felix Da Housecat
Hot Chip
Jacks Mannequin
Julieta Venegas
Lily Allen
Lupe Fiasco
Ozomatli
Peaches
Ghostface Killah
Jose Gonzales
Amos Lee
Brazilian Girls
Fountains of Wayne
Regina Spektor
VNV Nation
Coco Rosie
Cornelius
Gillian Welch
Junior Boys
Pharaohe Monche
Roky Erickson and the Explosives
Soulwax
Sparklehorse
The Kooks
Tilly and the Wall
Andrew Bird
Peter Bjorn & John
The Frames
Gogol Bordello
Comedians of Comedy
Justice
MSTRKRFT
We Are Scientists
Yeva
Grizzly Bear
Amy Winehouse
Avett Brothers
Circa Survive
The Coup
The Cribs
CSS
Digitalism
Erol Alkan
Evil Nine
Girl Talk
Klaxons
Noisettes
Spank Rock
Tapes 'n Tapes
The Fields
Tokyo Police Club
Rodrigo Y Gabriella
DJ Heather
The Feeling
Fratellis
Mike Relm
Silversun Pickups
Busdriver
Brother Ali
Nightwatchman (Tom Morello)
Bojones
Mika
Pop Levi
Anathallo
Fair to Midland


i know where ill be april 27 threw the 29th!

ok so lets see.

xmas was tite.
david was here for about 2 weeks which was fun to have him around. we had our anual xmas eve sleepover which many people dont understand why a 21 year old brother and a 19 year old sister would still have sleepovers on xmas eve. well its cool, becuase u dont need to understand it.
i got my digital camera and a pair of tsubi sunglasses i wanted. someother little things and a robe. haha nice.

new years eve was the shit
hahahhhahahahhahahahhahahahahahaahahhahaahhaahhahahaahhahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhhahha MUAH! hahahahhahahahahahhaahahhahahhahahahhahahahahhahahhahhahahahahaahah
is what it was like. k?

new things headed my way ... im loving my friends at the moment. im sad jennys leaving this weekend :o(.

i get to see BB KING on saturday!!!!!!!!!!!! SOO EXCITED!!! with my boys!! jason Calvin and Ricky!!! yay!! dont even trip, ill take pictures.

i need some new music. pleaseeeee comment and let me know of what you love k.

what else.. hmm.. ive been sleeping in my bros room. the bed in here is nice and tulie sleeps with me in here.. i want to kick her off the bed.

peace out

fuckkk.

im so tired but i cant sleeeeeeeeep

side effects:
The most common Zoloft side effects are dry mouth, insomnia, sexual side effects, diarrhea, nausea, and sleepiness. Not everyone gets side effects. 

how does that work.

im watching the polar express and i cant wait for christmas.

somehow im always dissapointed. even when i KNOW hes going to say no

worked yesterday.. BORING.
came home and ate 3 peices of pizza and a salad and coke
took 2 sleeping pills..
told dion he could come over later...
fell asleep to gilmore girls..

woke up at 5:30.. saw i had 4 missed calls.. 3 from dion.. and text.

i PASSED THE FUCK OUT LAST NIGHT AND just got up!!!!!! hahahahahahahhahahahahahahaaahahaha
i think ill do it again tonight! but hopefully i see dion and we watch a movie or something.
im watching halloween h20 right now and i think im going to go rent some scary movies or something i have to get the boy at 2.. have a wonderful day!

it was like a sad story

a woman and a man in the parking lot of a local starbucks.. crying and saying their goodbyes with a 40 of beer and ciggarettes. She was holding on to his arm like she never wanted to let go and return into reality or whatever they were trying to run away from. As we watched them i relized that they were probably saying goodbye to eachother, like they were ending an affair that had gone on too long and both relized it wasnt going to work. Akward as it was i didnt want to look away from them..

i snapped back when bruno said.. what is this? a love fest??

woohoo shopping day with kevin!

coffee, ciggs, shopping, all with KEVIN!!!!!!!!

im excited.

dont take advantage of me,

because u know i would do anything for you.